Too Late for Regret?..

For Saturday; 8 August 09

I promised myself to have something here every day. Though I didn't do it because of my hectic schedule, I still want to write for yesterday. I'm feeling bad at the moment. :( I don't know what was with me yesterday.

I started my day with my friend. We had breakfast at KFC (because she wanted to try their breakfast meals which were new to us) before going to Instituto. After my class there, I went straight to Miriam. My class started at 2:45 and ended at 6:00 PM. We finished late because we celebrated Sir Yani's birthday during the break. We also had our test. Every thing went okay. I knew I would go to my friend's wake for sure. I was just thinking if I could still drop by at my other friend's birthday party. On my way to Ali Mall (where my family and I have our regular anticipated Mass), I already texted my friends asking what time they were going to the wake. I celebrated Mass and had dinner with my family. Then, my friend texted that she couldn't go anymore because of some things she needed to finish. Because she's my closest friend there, I didn't know if I would still go. Then after an hour, she texted again telling me that she was already there. I asked Mom if I could still go; she said that it was too late for me to go. I didn't insist. Though I was still thinking of it in bed.

Then, today at about 12:00 PM, Ate texted me that the cremation would be at 2:00 PM and said that it would be too late for me to go. I was thinking if I could still go; but, I didn't insist.

Now, I'm feeling what I've done. I'm asking myself why I didn't insist on going. Why didn't I let that moment pass? That moment when I could see and say goodbye to my friend for the last time? :( I'm feeling sorry! I wish my prayers will make my shortcoming less.. I wish..