Finally..

This lyrics from Fergie's song "Finally" always gets my attention. I thought it was made for me.

Ever since I was a baby girl I had a dream
Cinderella theme
Crazy as it seems
Always knew that deep inside that there would come that day
But I would have to wait
Make so many mistakes
I couldn't comprehend
As I watched it unfold
This classic story told I left it in the cold
Walking through an open door that led me back to you
Each one unlocking more of the truth

..I finally got lost inside of you
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul

I'm like the girl in the song. I've always dreamed that I was a princess and a prince was coming just for me.. that there's a soul mate, a knight in shining armour, a Superman, a destiny. There was even a time when I believed that I already found him. Then I woke up knowing that it was only a dream (or a nightmare?..). Mom keeps on telling me that he will come in God/ess's will. I held on that. But the last catastrophes happened in the Philippines burst my bubble. There were Ondoy, Pepeng, Pepeng's wake, brownout, and another typhoon. I was watching the news and saw hundreds or thousands of my fellow Filipinos still suffering. (I hope we already learned our lesson.) For all that, I had an epiphany about my future kids' life. I know that I'm thinking too far again; but, it will definitely boil down to that. If I'd fall in love and get married, I'll have children... What would happen to my kids? What kind of life is waiting for them? But then, deep in my heart, I still trust my mom's word. I can one day say.. "Finally..." (And that doesn't necessarily mean finding a man.)