You are so weird!

"There's no accident. Everything happens for a reason." That's what they always say. If that's the case, I just have a question. Why is it that whenever I try to forget this person, that's also the time when he reaches out. Whenever I want to move on already, that's the time when he contacts me. Is the universe playing with my emotion? What is it trying to say? Or do I just give meaning to everything? That's another question. Whatever it is, I'll just see that in the coming days. I'll try not to think about it for the mean time. At the right time, I'll surely find out why.

It does hurt.

They say that there's always a first time. Yeah, right! And it hurts most of the time. I never imagined that I would get an incomplete grade in my life. I never thought that I would fail to submit a requirement on time. Didn't I give my best? I did not. Maybe, I should have pushed myself some more. But at the back of my mind now, I'm thinking that I just wanted to enjoy life, go out with my friends while working and studying. Can't I do them at the same time? :( Not yet, maybe. I became complacent, maybe. I procrastinated again. I remember I had time a lot of free time last semester but, I spent them browsing facebook and twitter. When will I ever learn my lesson? That's the question only I can answer. I want to change. I want to learn how to prioritize things. I would like be a better person because of this experience. So help me God.

At Sea

Do I think about things too much? Oh God! What did I get into? It's really no easy! Loads of work keep coming! They don't stop! Sometimes I wish I could forever be a kid so I won't have to face all these... I've never cried because of work... Just now... But then, I know that I'll be a better person after this. The process just hurts. Please make me a little stronger, God... Please...