For the record: I got up a bit earlier than I did for the past few days. That wasn't bad, right? Of course! Because of that, I timed in just a bit earlier. 5 minutes before the time, to be exact. Haha.
My day seemed to progress well. There was a workshop at work, and we were grouped according to our duties last year. Luckily, I was chosen to be the one taking down notes and reporting them to the big group later on. Yes, report, meaning talk in front of all my colleagues, facing a lot of "nosy" and "critical" people. That was the start of my letdown.
Let me recall that moment now. I was the last one who presented. Before I did, people were already happy with how the first ones did it. Most of them looked very confident. A lot of their presentations had substance. Whoa! For sure, you already have an idea how I felt. I got pressured! I was so sure that they were expecting a lot from me, but how would I do it? My group didn't dwell into details. Of course, that should not be an excuse. Well, during my presentation, I just saw people laughing their eyes out. I got this impression that something was hilarious. The next question now is: Was it in a good or in a bad way? I talked to my friends about it. And based on their answers, it appeared that the answer was the second one. Ouch!
During times like that, I can't help but be "childish" and "paranoid" in a way. Why? What went wrong? Was it that bad? What would people think? Those were the questions that came to my mind. I felt that my day was already ruined. What happened now to the goal that I set that morning?
Well, God is really amazing! Because of that incident, I was assured that a friend is really one. He didn't leave me. He was very patient listening and telling me light stories. It was because of that supposedly "mishap" that I was able to get to know him a bit more, a bit deeper. Thank You, Lord! That was also the reason why I was able to see a very good friend I haven't seen for quite some time. Thank You, dear God!
I am just really thankful now because God is reminding me to entrust everything to Him. He is reminding me of His perfect plan for me. After everything, it still turned out to be a happy day. Thank You, my Best friend J. Thank You!!!
