Friday, December 31, 2010
Hooray! It's 2011!
2011. I'm not sure what the new year has in store for me. But I will never get tired to hope for the best. I will never stop praying and wishing for good things. I hope that this year will be better, that we'll solve the problems we had in 2010. Anyway, I just came from a get-together with my college friends and one of them advised us to list down all the things that we desire and pray for them. She said, God will give them. "Ask and you will receive." What do I want to do? What do I want to happen with my life in 2011? A friend also reminded us that 50% is destiny but, we still have to work for the other half. So, here are the things that I would like to work on:
1. I would like to have a healthy lifestyle. This means eating right and having a regular work-out. It's the only way for me to finally have the body I want.
2. I would like to catch up on my readings. I've been very busy last year that I missed doing one of my favorite hobbies. Reading.
3. I would renew my passport.
4. I would really try hard to be a good daughter, sister, cousin, etc. I'll be more respectful and understanding.
5. I would like to go to Hongkong and China with my family this summer. I would like to spend more time with them.
6. I would like to go to Sagada with my friends.
7. I would like to have another adventure with my other set of friends. In short, I would like to visit a lot of new places.
8. I would like to learn how to drive a car and to play the piano.
9. I would like to continue doing yoga.
10. I would like to run at least once a week.
11. I would like to do boxing every week.
12. I would like to finish all the courses I took last semester and am taking now with good grades.
13. I would like to do better with my job.
14. I would like to be a better teacher with my students by understanding them and preparing for our lessons.
15. I would like to do at least one house chore every day.
16. I would like to learn how to meditate.
17. I would like to be more disciplined - waking up early, being at work at least an hour before it starts, finishing things even before the deadline, balancing and managing my time.
18. I pray that our family will finally own a house and a car here in Cubao. We're aiming for the one near my sister's friend's town house.
19. I would like to take and pass the LET.
20. I would like to continue my Spanish lessons.
21. I would like to finish my master's.
22. I would like to continue my charity work.
23. I would like to know Jesus more. Through that, I'm hoping that I'll be able to know Peter Pan better. I leave every thing to God if he's already the one. Then again, I pray that he is. If it will happen this year, only God knows.
24. I would like to continue taking care of myself, my family, and my friends.
25. I would like to be a better daughter of God and of my motherland.
26. I would like to give all my best in every thing that I'll do.
Wow! 26 things. I just typed every thing randomly. Is it coincidence that I'll also be turning 26 in 2011? Anyway, I'm really really keeping my fingers crossed that I'll be able to do them. May I have to courage to hold on to the promise to accomplish them. Most importantly, may I live my life fully everyday by being happy and grateful because of things that I have.
Thy Will Be Done. God bless us. I wish and pray that every one of us will have a meaningful, blessed, fruitful, peaceful, happy, and love-filled 2011!♥♥♥
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
My Peter Pan

(written before Christmas)
It's almost Christmas again! I've been spending the break checking essays of my students. The topic is to describe the person whom they would like to spend the holidays with. Most of them have the same style. I keep on getting the same question either in the introduction or in the body. How about you? How about me? Who would I like to spend it with?
I usually spend the holidays with my family. We stay at home, give gifts, visit our relatives, and attend the never-ending parties and reunions. That sounds fun, right? However, if there would be one person whom I would really really want to be with, it would definitely be my Peter Pan.
How would I describe my Peter Pan? As the name suggests, he's childlike in a way that I know him. He's such a happy person who always wears a smile. People often ask if he gets mad. He's so positive about life. There was one time when I really felt down and stressed and he was able to uplift my spirit just by reminding me of something. Also, I can be myself whenever I'm with him. I can show him the carefree me. Honestly, I've never felt that with other people before. When we're together, it's as if we're the only ones living in the world. Hours pass swiftly when we talk. I love looking at his innocent eyes. I'm sure he likes me. Though I'm still figuring out if he likes me the way I do.
Friday, December 3, 2010
Wake up!
When you understand you have options, you take action.
And when you understand you have wings, you can soar again.
Capisce?
The Universe
If it's still hurting, fly anyway.
:(
Friday, November 26, 2010
I'll get there...
"Like birds, we also have our season. All we have to do is wait."
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Another Prayer
You are truly amazing! I don't know how you do it but, you really have a way to make me feel better. I was so down last time; then, some things go back to how they were used to be that made me happy. Thank you!
I was texting with a guy friend last night. I asked him questions. Our conversation was like riding a roller coaster. I had some realizations; the most important among them is his advice for me not to assume too much. He said doing so will just hurt me in the end. Lord, I can't help it sometimes. Yet with your help, I'm sure I can do it. Please Lord... They say that love takes risks. If you're ready to fall in love, you also have to prepare yourself to get hurt. But God, I always get hurt in that aspect. :( They can't blame me if I already want this one for real. Then again, my friend said that You'll direct me to the right person. It's confusing, right? Like how I end my prayer, no matter what happens, I still leave everything to You. I love You, God!
Please make my eyes open, open to what is true and what is bogus. Kindly help my heart understand what is genuine and what's not. Please make me smart enough to know Your sign, to know what You want me to do. Amen.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
I'll be happy...
I miss talking to him. I miss seeing his smiles. I miss listening to his stories. I miss hearing his laughter. I miss him. I so miss him. I miss us.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
You are so weird!
It does hurt.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
At Sea
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Missing Someone
Friday, September 10, 2010
♡♥♡Loving it!♡♥♡
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Words of Wisdom from a Dear Friend
Are you going to follow other people or your happiness?"
Hmmmm... It does make sense, right? Thanks to you, my friend! I love you!
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
♥♡♥
Friday, August 20, 2010
☀Signs☀
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
SOS
Again, You're the only one I trust. Than You, Lord!
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Love Song
I thought you were gay; I hope you're really not.
I'm not sure when it started;
I just woke up one morning realizing how happy I am when I'm with you.
I suddenly find myself smiling.
Out of the blue, I catch myself thinking of you;
I feel my face blushing when your name is mentioned.
I don't understand where the pain comes from when they match you with another woman.
I don't know why it hurts.
After quite some time, I again start listening to love songs.
Again, I hear myself singing those songs.
How many times do I have to feel this?
How many times should I need to be hurt to finally find the one?
At the back of my mind, I'm hoping that it's you already.
I'm praying.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Dear God,
God, I made my mom cry again. I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to. I still can't get over that attitude - hurting the people, especially my parents, I love. This time, I promise to really try my best. Please give me chance. Please.
Another thing that's bothering me now is that thing. I don't need to mention it. But God, can you also help me not to expect? Not to assume? Please? I don't know how. Because I always do expect and assume that it goes somewhere.
Thank you, Lord! I still have to do a chore. I'll just hope for the best again. I love You!
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Broken Hearted Already? :(
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Distraction
Saturday, July 24, 2010
♬Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore...♬

I can’t fight this feeling any longer
And yet I’m still afraid to let it flow
What started out as friendship has grown stronger
I only wish I had the strength to let it show
I tell myself, that I can’t hold out forever
I say there is no reason for my fear
Cause I feel so secure when we’re together
You give my life direction, you make everything so clear
And even as I wonder I’m keeping you in sight
You’re a candle in the window on a cold dark winter’s night
And I’m getting closer than I ever thought I might
And I can’t fight this feeling anymore
I’ve forgotten what I started fighting for
It’s time to bring this ship into the shore
and throw away the oars forever
Cause I can’t fight this feeling anymore
I’ve forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crashing through your door
Baby I can’t fight this feeling anymore
My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you
I’ve been running around in circles in my mind
Baby it always seems that I’m following you
Cause you take me to the places that alone I’d never find
And even as I wonder I’m keeping you sight
You’re a candle in the window on a cold, dark winter’s night
And I’m getting closer than I ever thought I might
And I can’t fight this feeling anymore
I’ve forgotten what I started fighting for
It’s time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars forever
Cause I can’t fight this feeling anymore
I’ve forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crashing through your door
Baby I can’t fight this feeling anymore
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
All Over Again

Tuesday, May 25, 2010
25♥

Please keep on giving me the courage to strive to be a better person.
In my heart, I know that the future looks bright.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Question
I'll be starting in June as a teacher at Miriam. Then, out of the blue, Poveda called for another step in my application with them! Now, they're offering me the Spanish Preschool Teacher position. Oh God! Please help me.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
So Many Blessings To Be Thankful For
Wow! You are really working in mysterious ways. For so many times, I've proven that You have a perfect plan for each one of us. Thank You so much! There will definitely be doubts along the way; but, I'll do my best to be conscious of those. From now on, I'll really try to count all the good things in my life instead of the not so good.
First, I would like to thank You for my life. I'm turning 25 next week. Weee! I have mixed emotions, actually. Though, I don't want to entertain some of those. I'll focus on the positive side and for sure, I'm excited because I know that You have stored some wonderful things for me for the coming year.
Second, I can't thank You enough for the family I have. They are fantastic! Their mere text messages encouraged me to do my best when I was applying for a job.
Next are my friends! Wow, they keep me sane! I'm so favoured to have childhood friends who make me laugh like there's no tomorrow, college friends who keep me posted all the time, UBEC friends who are always there for me, and graduate school friends who never get tired of giving me pieces of advice and for making me realize that age is just a figure.
Last, for now, I really appreciate my new job. It's too early because I haven't even started yet; but, there's a reason why You allowed me to get into it. It's the start of my dream. The road will not be always smooth; but with Your help, I know I can make it. I'll give my best and my 100%. So, help me, God.
Amen.
Friday, April 30, 2010
Melancholy

Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Today, I learned that...
People just come and go... :(
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
I DO need ♥
Thursday, April 22, 2010
New Beginning

Monday, April 19, 2010
A Request

Here I am again. Scared. Confused.
I've made a number of decisions lately which resulted to some not so good things. Though, I'm not sure yet if I really did make the wrong move; one thing's for sure - I was happy with it.
Almost two years ago, I promised myself and my family that I would look for a lifetime career. I told my dad that it would take some time. I also said that I would try and try to get the perfect job for me. But God, I also felt scared that time. You know that life's getting tougher these days; I was so afraid not to have a job. I also enjoyed my job because of my friends, some students, and the time it gave me to do all my homework in the graduate school. Thank you, Lord.
Now God, I'm ready to start something new again. But I'm still apprehensive because of the stories of my friend who's looking for a job now. She's having a hard time finding one. Please help me, God. But looking at it now, I know You have a plan for me. I TRUST YOU.
I'm going to apply for a job tomorrow. Please guide, bless, and guard me. I hope I'll be able to do my best and be true to myself. So, help me God. ☺
P.S.
Lord, we're having a small family problem again. Please help everyone forgive and most especially, the person who committed a mistake. I hope in Your guidance, he could change for the better. I'm begging You, Lord. Please.
Friday, March 26, 2010
My Life @ at a Korean Company
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
-There's a Fine Fine Line-
I.Am.Bored.

Sunday, February 28, 2010
Blue
Perhaps, I should have gone to my friend's party.
Friday, February 12, 2010
Overturned
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
I'll Make It Up...
Monday, February 8, 2010
Move on...
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Feeling Better
Fear

I grew up seeing my mom suffer from her heart disease and stomach cramps. I was always scared that they might attack anytime. It made me dread that thing that I still don't want to say. Every time my mom got sick, she would always tell me to be ready for it. I hate that feeling! I don't know if that's normal; but, it still comes to my mind from time to time especially now that I'm getting more mature. (Just like a few years ago.) I was used to witnessing my dad being the strongest in the family; so, when we found out that he has diabetes, it made me anxious even more. Now, we're always worried about his health. My sister and I are always concerned about our parents, their health and their safety. When my dad travels, I would pray really hard. When I go somewhere, I would always think of it as well. When I go apart from my loved ones even for a few hours, I would feel that. It's not good anymore, right? I'm thinking of consulting a counselor, a priest, or a psychiatrist. Oh God/ess! Please help me! I don't want to attract negative energies! Please! I need to help myself!
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Summer

A Visit

Monday, February 1, 2010
Exhausted
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Are you alright?
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
ReLive

Monday, January 25, 2010
Wish For
Thursday, January 7, 2010
What an adventure!
